Day Three.

Uhg I am exhausted. From about 8 a.m and 8:30 p.m, my mom, my aunt Patty, my aunt Jane, my sister and I were shopping all over St. Louis. Our first stop was CVS pharmacy to pick up a few things we neglected to bring from home. Next we headed to Kohl's, because my aunt Jane is from Canada and they don't have that there. My aunt Patty was so generous to give my sister and I $30 dollars to spend on anything we wanted and Auntie Jane gave us $25. Since I didn't have time to go to the bank before we left Michigan to get money for Christmas gifts for my friends and my secret santa, I had to barrow, $40 from my mother. With that being said, I feel like I should say I spent all of  all of it except $8. I got two shirts, two kimonos, a pack of jelly belly "bean boozled", the book "speak" by Laurie Halse Anderson, a beautiful rose gold watch, and a bunch of secret sanata stuff and mic. Christmas gifts for my family and friends. My mother also splurged and bought me a brand new down winter coat, super nice fuzzy socks, a new scarf for my coat and some nice gloves.

In the middle of buying and shopping we stopped at Red Robin and my Aunt Patty bought us all lunch with the $500 winning scratch ticket money. I was supper impressed. When we got back to the house my aunt Patty gave my sister and I gorgeous necklaces. My sister got a cross and I got an angel. I'm not all that religious, but it really doesn't matter. I am just so happy to have something from her that I can hold on to forever. 

I just want to say to everyone whose reading this, I am so very thankful for my whole family. Especially my mother. She has worked her whole life to make a great life for me, and honestly, I could never imagine my life with out such a role model to look up too. From birth to now, she has raised me to be the girl I am today, and the universe just wouldn't be the same with out her. The last few days have really shown me how much my whole family cares about me, and how much I care for them. And it's not just the material things such as a watch or a coat, but it's the actual love and care they show by welcoming me and my mom and dad and sister into their home, or by spending thanksgiving with us. Family can't not be bought or shared through possessive items. 

Goodnight friends. I'll write soon. xoxo

Happy Thanksgiving!

Currently, It's about 4:30 p.m in Michigan, but as you may have read, I'm in Missouri with my family, so it's about 3:30. So I just finished my huge dinner and I am stuffed. While my Aunt Patty and my cousin Andrew were making the dinner, my heart hurt so bad to see the dead turkey in the crock pot. I made a decision this Thanksgiving to go vegetarian. So I didn't eat any turkey, despite it looking delicious after being cooked.

So we're going to back up and I'm going to walk you though my day.

6:30 a.m I wake up to my dad sitting on the couch laughing at God knows what on his Facebook. After that at about 8 a.m we were all up, except my 3 year old little cousin. Then she woke up and all hell broke lose. She was running around, screeching, and just being a nuisance. We hung out, drank some coffee and ate some breakfast until about noon. At that point we all felt Christmas coming on. So My aunt being an arts and crafts type of person, went to the basement and brought up 3 huge boxes of Christmas crafts. My sister, my mom, my Aunt Jane, my Aunt Patty, and I all sat around the dinning room making wreaths, ornaments, and all sorts of spirited shit like that, while my dad, my Uncle Mike, and Andrew, sat in the living room playing old video games and eventually switching to watching football. I soon joined in on the football fun. The Lions beat the Eagles so thats pretty cool. After that the dinner was being made, we ate and here I am now. Sitting in the guest room on my laptop. I am almost positive more sort of interesting things are going to happen today, but I have decided, unless it's really entertaining and blog-worthy, then I'm going to stay off of the computer and spend time with my family. If I don't write again tonight, then I defiantly will tomorrow, because I'm sure I'll have a lot to talk about, considering it's my very first time going black Friday shopping!


I am so thankful for everyone reading this. I'm sorry I might bore you or disappoint you with my lack of writing, but you're obviously still reading. Thank you for being great. And have an amazing turkey day! Eat you little beautiful hearts out.

Day One In Missouri.

Today was hectic. First event of the day was resisting to wake up early on the first day of my 5 day Thanksgiving break. My alarm went off at 6 a.m and I always have the tendency to sleep through it until at least 6:30. But this morning was special. I woke up at 6 a.m right when my alarm went of, because I had to finish packing. So my mother wanted to be out on the highway on our way towards St. Louis at 8 a.m. But of course, I guess I should have know, we didn't leave Hastings until 7:30, about a half hour late. Not to mention we had to go 45 minutes out of the way to go and pick my sister in Kalamazoo. So thats how the early morning worked out.


So we got to Kalamazoo and picked up my sister, she is currently sick, so I will be surprised if I don't die with the flu by the end of the week. So we left K-Zoo and started towards Missouri and we stopped at a gas station to pick a few thing up and fill the tires with air. Of course you can't have an 8 hour car ride without the car breaking down. After my dad turned off the car and got all on the stuff at the mini mart, he came back out, we were all packed up and loaded in the car and the car wouldn't start. He went to the trunk all pissed off looking for jumper cables, and eventually found that there were none. After going back into the mini mart, buying cables, and asking a few random people for a jump (and eventually getting one) we finally headed out.

So from about 8 a.m to about 11 a.m (the time change included so it was actually about 4 hours) we stopped and had the absolute worst breakfast in my life. From there we got back on the road and stayed on the freeway for about 3 more hours, stopping one more time for a gas and pee break, at about 4 p.m. Sitting in the back of my moms horribly uncomfortable Acura MDX and driving through the most boring state in the country. I was extremely ornery the whole time so that didn't help. Congratulations Illinois, you officially suck.


At about 5 p.m we finally got to my aunts house, and I am currently sitting on the couch listening to my dad and Aunt Jane tell awful knock knock jokes. I can't help but feel really out of place around my family here. Also to add insult to injury, I have to sleep on the couch, with my 3 year old cousin. Wish me luck. I'll keep you updated.

I'm Sorry.

It's been a little while since I've posted on here, and I want to just apologize. I have had people bug me about posting because they like to read this, but It's honestly so hard for me to write when I'm not inspired. And lately I just haven't had the motivation or will to do anything really. I have a few topics that I really want to discuss on here, but again the inspiration isn't there. I am trying really hard, I promise. I'm leaving tomorrow for an 8 hour car ride to Missouri; maybe I'll have a little more will to write something other then just a lame excuse as to not post now. Thank you all for your support. Please keep reading, things will start getting better, I promise. I love all of you <3

I Got Dumped Today.

To say today sucked is an understatement.

I tend to say that bad things happen to good people. It's unfair but its true. It's a cruel joke to see how you react to the crappy inevidable misfortunes that happen to you. But in a way, I also believe that good things fall apart, so better things can fall together.
I was happy, like really happy, but something happened and things just changed. I tried and tried to keep things going good but, I had to give up, and come to the realization that Elmer's glue is not going to hold two pieces of steel together. It hurt a lot when it happened, but the hardest part was bringing to mind the fact that we just didn't fit. And thats okay.
This has taught me that putting your happiness on to one person is always going to end badly, because eventually they will let you down. So you have to learn to be happy on your own before you give your everything to a person who might not want you 100%. And another thing I want to add is, you are worth so much more then waiting for someone to love you back. Do not lower yourself because so you "can't" find someone to love you. Theres someone out there for you, and yeah it may take time to find them, but so be it. I am currently 16 years old. I have my whole life to discover someone or something to make me feel really loved. I have to begin to love myself, because if I can't be happy with the way I am, then what can I be happy about?


- YOUR WORTH IS NOT DEFINED BY THE CONNECTIONS YOU'VE LOST

Controversy

So the other night I was really taking into consideration some of the things I've heard my peers say, regarding the controversial subject of gay marriage. Not naming any names, last year in my biology class I had one individual explain to me why he was against the act of two people of the same sex getting married. His one and only argument was, "In the bible, it was Adam and Eve, not Adam and Steve." Thats what got me thinking. A lot of the people who are against it, claim that they are all 100% perfect pure Christians. What many of those "perfect pure" Christians may not know, is that they go against the bible everyday of their life. Many people might not know that Leviticus 19:28 reads:“Ye shall not make any cuttings in your flesh for the dead, nor print any marks upon you: I am the LORD.” So with that being said, getting bible verses or anything that may be supporting the idea of the bible, printed on your skin, is not following the bible. So, to all of the Christians out there with works of art on your body, why are you against love between two people? Saying it's against the bible is honestly not a logical explanation. To give another example, Deuteronomy 22:20-21 states:"But if this thing be true, and the tokens of virginity be not found for the damsel: Then they shall bring out the damsel to the door of her father's house, and the men of her city shall stone her with stones that she die:"Pretty much what this is saying is, that If you have sex before you're married then your father shall throw stones at you until you die. Many people would probably agree that this is completely ridiculous. (Rhetorical question coming at you) Now tell me, all of you perfect pure Christians out there who don't think it's "right" for a man to lay down with another man because it's against the bible, do you think it's okay for a man to stone his daughter to death after losing her virginity to a person she is not married to? A majority of you will say no. But if you don't believe an man should have the right to murder his child for a reason such as that, then why do you think it is wrong for a man and a man, or two women the have the right to show their love by getting married. I think I've made my point. 

Sibling Separation.

Before starting this post I just want to apologize because I have been super busy this past weekend, so I haven't had time to post anything in the past five days. I have finally found a time slot to blog about something I have wanted to talk about since I started.

So if you did not know, I have a sister who's 18. All my life she has been my true best friend. Last year was my freshman year in high school, and it was her senior year. That year I saw my sister everyday and I was as happy as ever. We are extremely close. So she is super musical and she got into Western Michigan University, to got to their school of music. One bragging right of that is, they let about sixteen new-comers every year, and she made it. So with that being said, I was of course happy for her, but I was honestly devastated that I wasn't going to see my best friend every day any more. It was super hard to go into her room and help her unpack and get ready to leave. The day she actually moved was honestly one of the saddest days of my life. I cried like a lot. 

It's about two months later and it's still really sad for me to think about. I was so used to waking up in the morning and getting ready for school with her. Sure she comes home on the weekends, but it's just not the same.

- PSA
        Really sorry that this one is kind of short, it's just I'm super sick right now and I just don't have the energy to post something long and time consuming. I'll try again tomorrow.