As a 16 year old female who loves the idea of makeup and dressing up, I seem to get complimented quite often. And please, I am not at all trying to brag at all about people complimenting me, this is actually the opposite. So like I said, I often find myself in a situation where, I have been complimented, and I have no idea what to say. It gets this way every time actually. And I know a lot of people say, "thank you" after being told they're pretty, but for some reason I can't help but feel really awkward and kind of vulnerable. And I hate feeling this way but, the reason I feel so exposed in that circumstance is because, there rarely comes a time when I believe that they really mean what they say. At times I'll look in the mirror at myself and I will actually believe that I look beautiful, but a majority of the time I don't see a person who is visually appealing, which breaks my heart. And that all kind of ties into the title of this post.
"Take a compliment."
Boys and girls everywhere, especially in this day and age where every time you turn your head you see the expectation of the way a person wishes to look, are having terrible self-esteem issues.(sorry run on) And the way a person looks is so important to the media and social surroundings. The problems of low self-esteem in all people are rooted form such surroundings. And because of the surroundings and the sometimes hurtful attitudes towards ones self, the affects of a statement towards a person can mean different things to different individuals. The way they take in the compliment depends solely on their own image of themselves, inside and out. I promise, someone not "taking your compliment", It's not a personal attack on you, It's them not seeing the beauty you may see in them. And I get that sometimes it frustrates you that they don't see it, but they will. Let them grow into themselves. And every compliment counts, even the ones that aren't necessarily accepted. So keep giving them out. xoxo
Tuesday, April 5, 2016
Wednesday, February 3, 2016
Lame Theater Stuff.
Long time no talk. Some series of events came up the last month that kept me from writing. Writers block being just one of the few. So this is post is a post pretty much about all of my theater background.
2009- Oliver. My very first show was Oliver and I was one of the little orphans. If you don't know the story, a little boy named Oliver starts at an orphanage, and has the audacity to ask for more food from the cook. He soon gets booted out and starts hanging out with some city pick-pocketers. A funny story about this show is that, the reason I got to do it was because the Kids Choir I was in was recruited for the show. My sister at the time was about 13 and she decided to steal my spot light and try out for (and got) the lead of Oliver. I was so mad that I crawled and cried for about 3 hours.
2011- Yes Virginia, There is a Santa Claus. A few years later I got recruited by the same director for my second show. She didn't really know me from Oliver, but that didn't matter to me. So she saw me perform when I was singing and playing the guitar at a recital. This was my first show that I had lines in, which was pretty cool.
2013- The Music Man. Another really small chorus role who sat in the back dancing and singing ooos. It was actually a pretty boring show so nothing really awesome to tell. The one cool thing about this show was that, when my dad was in high school he played the lead role in it. I kinda had some bragging rights because of that.
2014- Suessical! Seriously one of my absolute favorite productions I've ever been in, if not my number 1. The cast was amazing and I loved all of them so so much. This was another chorus role for me but honestly it was the most fun I have ever had in a chorus role. The story was so flamboyant and loud that no matter how much someone wanted to hate, they couldn't. The story of the musical is based on a bunch of Dr.Suess books like Hortan hears a Who, Gertrude McFuzz, Cat In The Hat and so many more. It was so great and if I could go do it again, I would in a heartbeat.
2015- Once Upon a Mattress. The untold story of the princess and the pea. This show was my first big let down. I was a freshman when I did this show and I was ambitious enough to try out for the lead. I felt so confident on all aspects of my audition, and apparently the people who judged me thought I did good too, because I got a callback. The awful part of this is that, the day of my callback I got my braces on. My mouth was hurting so bad I started crying during my second audition in front of all of the other girls and the judges. I was embarrassed and in pain, but I pushed through and sang my song with all I had and still felt confident. Me being a stupid freshman, I got my hopes up just for them to be let down when I found out I got chorus; again. Nevertheless I had a pretty okay time, mainly because I got to spend a majority of my time with a very lovely human being named Ilie who I love dearly.
2015 (pt. 2)- The Crucible. Scariest show I've ever been in. This was a very special show to me because it was the first show I got to do with my extremely talented father. The thing I loved about this cast was that there were all different age groups in it, yet we were all very united as a group, and that one of the most important thing to have in a cast. This show I played a small role of Mercy Lewis a verbally abusive 18 year old. At the end of the show, me and my satan conjuring friend take a ship to Barbados to avoid the rope. If you don't know the story watch the move, its very good.
2015 (pt. 3)- Pride and Prejudice. MY FIRST LEAD!!! This show was directly after the crucible which didn't give me a lot of time to really know the story, but by the end of the show, everything was way to clear for me. In this I played the role of Lady Catherine De Bourge another verbally abusive character. Favorite part was defiantly when I got to bitch out Elizabeth Bennett, who was played by the sweetest person in the world who I love very much, miss Katie Pohl. This cast was my family and I wouldn't have traded them for anything in the entire world.
Can we just pause and realize that I did 3 huge shows in one year? I think thats pretty cool. *applause*
2016(currently)- Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory. MY SECOND LEAD! I see a pattern forming of snotty sassy characters... I am currently playing the part of Veruca Salt, a spoiled daddies girl who gets thrown away when she doesn't get what she wants. Plus this show is pretty neat because this is the first time I get my own song so yay!!! Thats pretty much it.
Love you guys thanks for reading. Sorry I've been falling behind, I'll try to catch up
xoxo.
2009- Oliver. My very first show was Oliver and I was one of the little orphans. If you don't know the story, a little boy named Oliver starts at an orphanage, and has the audacity to ask for more food from the cook. He soon gets booted out and starts hanging out with some city pick-pocketers. A funny story about this show is that, the reason I got to do it was because the Kids Choir I was in was recruited for the show. My sister at the time was about 13 and she decided to steal my spot light and try out for (and got) the lead of Oliver. I was so mad that I crawled and cried for about 3 hours.
2011- Yes Virginia, There is a Santa Claus. A few years later I got recruited by the same director for my second show. She didn't really know me from Oliver, but that didn't matter to me. So she saw me perform when I was singing and playing the guitar at a recital. This was my first show that I had lines in, which was pretty cool.
2013- The Music Man. Another really small chorus role who sat in the back dancing and singing ooos. It was actually a pretty boring show so nothing really awesome to tell. The one cool thing about this show was that, when my dad was in high school he played the lead role in it. I kinda had some bragging rights because of that.
2014- Suessical! Seriously one of my absolute favorite productions I've ever been in, if not my number 1. The cast was amazing and I loved all of them so so much. This was another chorus role for me but honestly it was the most fun I have ever had in a chorus role. The story was so flamboyant and loud that no matter how much someone wanted to hate, they couldn't. The story of the musical is based on a bunch of Dr.Suess books like Hortan hears a Who, Gertrude McFuzz, Cat In The Hat and so many more. It was so great and if I could go do it again, I would in a heartbeat.
2015- Once Upon a Mattress. The untold story of the princess and the pea. This show was my first big let down. I was a freshman when I did this show and I was ambitious enough to try out for the lead. I felt so confident on all aspects of my audition, and apparently the people who judged me thought I did good too, because I got a callback. The awful part of this is that, the day of my callback I got my braces on. My mouth was hurting so bad I started crying during my second audition in front of all of the other girls and the judges. I was embarrassed and in pain, but I pushed through and sang my song with all I had and still felt confident. Me being a stupid freshman, I got my hopes up just for them to be let down when I found out I got chorus; again. Nevertheless I had a pretty okay time, mainly because I got to spend a majority of my time with a very lovely human being named Ilie who I love dearly.
2015 (pt. 2)- The Crucible. Scariest show I've ever been in. This was a very special show to me because it was the first show I got to do with my extremely talented father. The thing I loved about this cast was that there were all different age groups in it, yet we were all very united as a group, and that one of the most important thing to have in a cast. This show I played a small role of Mercy Lewis a verbally abusive 18 year old. At the end of the show, me and my satan conjuring friend take a ship to Barbados to avoid the rope. If you don't know the story watch the move, its very good.
2015 (pt. 3)- Pride and Prejudice. MY FIRST LEAD!!! This show was directly after the crucible which didn't give me a lot of time to really know the story, but by the end of the show, everything was way to clear for me. In this I played the role of Lady Catherine De Bourge another verbally abusive character. Favorite part was defiantly when I got to bitch out Elizabeth Bennett, who was played by the sweetest person in the world who I love very much, miss Katie Pohl. This cast was my family and I wouldn't have traded them for anything in the entire world.
Can we just pause and realize that I did 3 huge shows in one year? I think thats pretty cool. *applause*
2016(currently)- Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory. MY SECOND LEAD! I see a pattern forming of snotty sassy characters... I am currently playing the part of Veruca Salt, a spoiled daddies girl who gets thrown away when she doesn't get what she wants. Plus this show is pretty neat because this is the first time I get my own song so yay!!! Thats pretty much it.
Love you guys thanks for reading. Sorry I've been falling behind, I'll try to catch up
xoxo.
Wednesday, December 23, 2015
Update/Christmas Post
So I realize that I have seriously neglected this blog lately. My last post was almost a full month ago, and I am super sorry that I haven't posted, even though I have been nagged excessively to post. So Christmas is coming up and I really wanted to do a christmas blog, but not without catching you guys up on the almost full month with no blog. With that being said, this is going to be a kinda combined post, so it's probably going to be quite long. The reason I'm combining them, is because its almost Christmas and I am going to be extremely busy these next few days, and I have a few hours of free time right now, so I'm going to post this, then probably not post next until beginning of January, again because I have so much shit on my plate.
So to start off the update portion of this post, I have to start by telling you about Pride and Prejudice. I don't think I have wrote on here, but If you follow me on twitter then you probably know that I was in my schools production of Pride and Prejudice. I played the role of Lady Catherine De Bourgh and it was probably the hardest role I've ever done. I had a bunch of lines and even though it was challenging, it was so rewarding. I loved my cast and crew they were all amazing people and I'm beyond grateful to say that I worked with them. Another thing I am so so excited to tell you guys about is the musical for the school year! Every year my school had a big winter musical, and this year we are doing Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory. I love this show so I was so excited to be apart of this cast. So I auditioned the Monday before I went onto winter break and, of course I auditioned for a lead, but I never counted on anything, because of what happened last year. Last year the musical was Once Upon a Mattress, the story of the princess and the pea, and the lead role was a princess named Winifred. I was extremely pumped for it because I auditioned for Winifred and I nailed my audition and ended up getting a call back. The day of my call back I ended up getting braces. Due to the fact that I was in a whole lot of pain, I ended up breaking down and bawling in front of all of the judges. I still felt really confident though because I nailed the song. And when the cast list went up, I had built my hopes so high up the they were smashed when I saw that I got chorus, especially after how hard I worked. And because I wasn't counting on anything and my hopes were really really down, I was really reluctant to try for a lead this year. But I did have a lot of people encourage me to do it, and I was so grateful to have people who believed in me. So I tried out for Verruca Salt, one of the lead kids in the show. After my audition I felt awful about it because it wasn't as good as last year. I was not counting on anything. To my surprise, when I looked at the cast list, I got the part!! I am so so excited for this. So thats pretty much the bulk of my resent life.
Christmas!!
Ugh Christmas is coming up and stress is hitting hard. I've spent way to much money on presents and too much time buying them. But its okay because I love christmas. I love the holiday season and the snow winters and coming together with family and friends. But what saddens me during this time of the year, is the fact that kids are raised to think Christmas is about getting new toys and money. A little girl I babysit came up to me while I was wrapping presents and said to me, "are you getting me a gift?" I replied with maybe. She then proceeded to ell me she wants an iPad. I said okay. About an hour later she says to me, "Can you go get my iPad now, because I really want it." It hurts my heart that the new meaning of Christmas is gifts and possessions. Sure everyone likes getting gifts, even me, but to me the real meaning Christmas is appreciating what you have. My mom working to support me and the rest of my family is enough of a gift. My dad always encouraging me and pushing me to do the right thing, is enough of a gift. My sister always being someone to look up to and aspire to be, is more then enough of a gift to me. And my friends always just being by my side through everything I go through, makes me grateful beyond all belief. Its nice to give a person presents to show them you care, but the best way to show a person you love them, is to be there with them to make happy memories. I hope every one has a safe and happy Christmas. I'll talk to you in 2016. xoxo
So to start off the update portion of this post, I have to start by telling you about Pride and Prejudice. I don't think I have wrote on here, but If you follow me on twitter then you probably know that I was in my schools production of Pride and Prejudice. I played the role of Lady Catherine De Bourgh and it was probably the hardest role I've ever done. I had a bunch of lines and even though it was challenging, it was so rewarding. I loved my cast and crew they were all amazing people and I'm beyond grateful to say that I worked with them. Another thing I am so so excited to tell you guys about is the musical for the school year! Every year my school had a big winter musical, and this year we are doing Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory. I love this show so I was so excited to be apart of this cast. So I auditioned the Monday before I went onto winter break and, of course I auditioned for a lead, but I never counted on anything, because of what happened last year. Last year the musical was Once Upon a Mattress, the story of the princess and the pea, and the lead role was a princess named Winifred. I was extremely pumped for it because I auditioned for Winifred and I nailed my audition and ended up getting a call back. The day of my call back I ended up getting braces. Due to the fact that I was in a whole lot of pain, I ended up breaking down and bawling in front of all of the judges. I still felt really confident though because I nailed the song. And when the cast list went up, I had built my hopes so high up the they were smashed when I saw that I got chorus, especially after how hard I worked. And because I wasn't counting on anything and my hopes were really really down, I was really reluctant to try for a lead this year. But I did have a lot of people encourage me to do it, and I was so grateful to have people who believed in me. So I tried out for Verruca Salt, one of the lead kids in the show. After my audition I felt awful about it because it wasn't as good as last year. I was not counting on anything. To my surprise, when I looked at the cast list, I got the part!! I am so so excited for this. So thats pretty much the bulk of my resent life.
Christmas!!
Ugh Christmas is coming up and stress is hitting hard. I've spent way to much money on presents and too much time buying them. But its okay because I love christmas. I love the holiday season and the snow winters and coming together with family and friends. But what saddens me during this time of the year, is the fact that kids are raised to think Christmas is about getting new toys and money. A little girl I babysit came up to me while I was wrapping presents and said to me, "are you getting me a gift?" I replied with maybe. She then proceeded to ell me she wants an iPad. I said okay. About an hour later she says to me, "Can you go get my iPad now, because I really want it." It hurts my heart that the new meaning of Christmas is gifts and possessions. Sure everyone likes getting gifts, even me, but to me the real meaning Christmas is appreciating what you have. My mom working to support me and the rest of my family is enough of a gift. My dad always encouraging me and pushing me to do the right thing, is enough of a gift. My sister always being someone to look up to and aspire to be, is more then enough of a gift to me. And my friends always just being by my side through everything I go through, makes me grateful beyond all belief. Its nice to give a person presents to show them you care, but the best way to show a person you love them, is to be there with them to make happy memories. I hope every one has a safe and happy Christmas. I'll talk to you in 2016. xoxo
Friday, November 27, 2015
Day Three.
Uhg I am exhausted. From about 8 a.m and 8:30 p.m, my mom, my aunt Patty, my aunt Jane, my sister and I were shopping all over St. Louis. Our first stop was CVS pharmacy to pick up a few things we neglected to bring from home. Next we headed to Kohl's, because my aunt Jane is from Canada and they don't have that there. My aunt Patty was so generous to give my sister and I $30 dollars to spend on anything we wanted and Auntie Jane gave us $25. Since I didn't have time to go to the bank before we left Michigan to get money for Christmas gifts for my friends and my secret santa, I had to barrow, $40 from my mother. With that being said, I feel like I should say I spent all of all of it except $8. I got two shirts, two kimonos, a pack of jelly belly "bean boozled", the book "speak" by Laurie Halse Anderson, a beautiful rose gold watch, and a bunch of secret sanata stuff and mic. Christmas gifts for my family and friends. My mother also splurged and bought me a brand new down winter coat, super nice fuzzy socks, a new scarf for my coat and some nice gloves.
In the middle of buying and shopping we stopped at Red Robin and my Aunt Patty bought us all lunch with the $500 winning scratch ticket money. I was supper impressed. When we got back to the house my aunt Patty gave my sister and I gorgeous necklaces. My sister got a cross and I got an angel. I'm not all that religious, but it really doesn't matter. I am just so happy to have something from her that I can hold on to forever.
I just want to say to everyone whose reading this, I am so very thankful for my whole family. Especially my mother. She has worked her whole life to make a great life for me, and honestly, I could never imagine my life with out such a role model to look up too. From birth to now, she has raised me to be the girl I am today, and the universe just wouldn't be the same with out her. The last few days have really shown me how much my whole family cares about me, and how much I care for them. And it's not just the material things such as a watch or a coat, but it's the actual love and care they show by welcoming me and my mom and dad and sister into their home, or by spending thanksgiving with us. Family can't not be bought or shared through possessive items.
Goodnight friends. I'll write soon. xoxo
Thursday, November 26, 2015
Happy Thanksgiving!
Currently, It's about 4:30 p.m in Michigan, but as you may have read, I'm in Missouri with my family, so it's about 3:30. So I just finished my huge dinner and I am stuffed. While my Aunt Patty and my cousin Andrew were making the dinner, my heart hurt so bad to see the dead turkey in the crock pot. I made a decision this Thanksgiving to go vegetarian. So I didn't eat any turkey, despite it looking delicious after being cooked.
So we're going to back up and I'm going to walk you though my day.
6:30 a.m I wake up to my dad sitting on the couch laughing at God knows what on his Facebook. After that at about 8 a.m we were all up, except my 3 year old little cousin. Then she woke up and all hell broke lose. She was running around, screeching, and just being a nuisance. We hung out, drank some coffee and ate some breakfast until about noon. At that point we all felt Christmas coming on. So My aunt being an arts and crafts type of person, went to the basement and brought up 3 huge boxes of Christmas crafts. My sister, my mom, my Aunt Jane, my Aunt Patty, and I all sat around the dinning room making wreaths, ornaments, and all sorts of spirited shit like that, while my dad, my Uncle Mike, and Andrew, sat in the living room playing old video games and eventually switching to watching football. I soon joined in on the football fun. The Lions beat the Eagles so thats pretty cool. After that the dinner was being made, we ate and here I am now. Sitting in the guest room on my laptop. I am almost positive more sort of interesting things are going to happen today, but I have decided, unless it's really entertaining and blog-worthy, then I'm going to stay off of the computer and spend time with my family. If I don't write again tonight, then I defiantly will tomorrow, because I'm sure I'll have a lot to talk about, considering it's my very first time going black Friday shopping!
I am so thankful for everyone reading this. I'm sorry I might bore you or disappoint you with my lack of writing, but you're obviously still reading. Thank you for being great. And have an amazing turkey day! Eat you little beautiful hearts out.
So we're going to back up and I'm going to walk you though my day.
6:30 a.m I wake up to my dad sitting on the couch laughing at God knows what on his Facebook. After that at about 8 a.m we were all up, except my 3 year old little cousin. Then she woke up and all hell broke lose. She was running around, screeching, and just being a nuisance. We hung out, drank some coffee and ate some breakfast until about noon. At that point we all felt Christmas coming on. So My aunt being an arts and crafts type of person, went to the basement and brought up 3 huge boxes of Christmas crafts. My sister, my mom, my Aunt Jane, my Aunt Patty, and I all sat around the dinning room making wreaths, ornaments, and all sorts of spirited shit like that, while my dad, my Uncle Mike, and Andrew, sat in the living room playing old video games and eventually switching to watching football. I soon joined in on the football fun. The Lions beat the Eagles so thats pretty cool. After that the dinner was being made, we ate and here I am now. Sitting in the guest room on my laptop. I am almost positive more sort of interesting things are going to happen today, but I have decided, unless it's really entertaining and blog-worthy, then I'm going to stay off of the computer and spend time with my family. If I don't write again tonight, then I defiantly will tomorrow, because I'm sure I'll have a lot to talk about, considering it's my very first time going black Friday shopping!
I am so thankful for everyone reading this. I'm sorry I might bore you or disappoint you with my lack of writing, but you're obviously still reading. Thank you for being great. And have an amazing turkey day! Eat you little beautiful hearts out.
Wednesday, November 25, 2015
Day One In Missouri.
Today was hectic. First event of the day was resisting to wake up early on the first day of my 5 day Thanksgiving break. My alarm went off at 6 a.m and I always have the tendency to sleep through it until at least 6:30. But this morning was special. I woke up at 6 a.m right when my alarm went of, because I had to finish packing. So my mother wanted to be out on the highway on our way towards St. Louis at 8 a.m. But of course, I guess I should have know, we didn't leave Hastings until 7:30, about a half hour late. Not to mention we had to go 45 minutes out of the way to go and pick my sister in Kalamazoo. So thats how the early morning worked out.
So we got to Kalamazoo and picked up my sister, she is currently sick, so I will be surprised if I don't die with the flu by the end of the week. So we left K-Zoo and started towards Missouri and we stopped at a gas station to pick a few thing up and fill the tires with air. Of course you can't have an 8 hour car ride without the car breaking down. After my dad turned off the car and got all on the stuff at the mini mart, he came back out, we were all packed up and loaded in the car and the car wouldn't start. He went to the trunk all pissed off looking for jumper cables, and eventually found that there were none. After going back into the mini mart, buying cables, and asking a few random people for a jump (and eventually getting one) we finally headed out.
So from about 8 a.m to about 11 a.m (the time change included so it was actually about 4 hours) we stopped and had the absolute worst breakfast in my life. From there we got back on the road and stayed on the freeway for about 3 more hours, stopping one more time for a gas and pee break, at about 4 p.m. Sitting in the back of my moms horribly uncomfortable Acura MDX and driving through the most boring state in the country. I was extremely ornery the whole time so that didn't help. Congratulations Illinois, you officially suck.
At about 5 p.m we finally got to my aunts house, and I am currently sitting on the couch listening to my dad and Aunt Jane tell awful knock knock jokes. I can't help but feel really out of place around my family here. Also to add insult to injury, I have to sleep on the couch, with my 3 year old cousin. Wish me luck. I'll keep you updated.
So we got to Kalamazoo and picked up my sister, she is currently sick, so I will be surprised if I don't die with the flu by the end of the week. So we left K-Zoo and started towards Missouri and we stopped at a gas station to pick a few thing up and fill the tires with air. Of course you can't have an 8 hour car ride without the car breaking down. After my dad turned off the car and got all on the stuff at the mini mart, he came back out, we were all packed up and loaded in the car and the car wouldn't start. He went to the trunk all pissed off looking for jumper cables, and eventually found that there were none. After going back into the mini mart, buying cables, and asking a few random people for a jump (and eventually getting one) we finally headed out.
So from about 8 a.m to about 11 a.m (the time change included so it was actually about 4 hours) we stopped and had the absolute worst breakfast in my life. From there we got back on the road and stayed on the freeway for about 3 more hours, stopping one more time for a gas and pee break, at about 4 p.m. Sitting in the back of my moms horribly uncomfortable Acura MDX and driving through the most boring state in the country. I was extremely ornery the whole time so that didn't help. Congratulations Illinois, you officially suck.
At about 5 p.m we finally got to my aunts house, and I am currently sitting on the couch listening to my dad and Aunt Jane tell awful knock knock jokes. I can't help but feel really out of place around my family here. Also to add insult to injury, I have to sleep on the couch, with my 3 year old cousin. Wish me luck. I'll keep you updated.
Tuesday, November 24, 2015
I'm Sorry.
It's been a little while since I've posted on here, and I want to just apologize. I have had people bug me about posting because they like to read this, but It's honestly so hard for me to write when I'm not inspired. And lately I just haven't had the motivation or will to do anything really. I have a few topics that I really want to discuss on here, but again the inspiration isn't there. I am trying really hard, I promise. I'm leaving tomorrow for an 8 hour car ride to Missouri; maybe I'll have a little more will to write something other then just a lame excuse as to not post now. Thank you all for your support. Please keep reading, things will start getting better, I promise. I love all of you <3
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